Social Disorder

Social Disorder

Todays Blog is kinda personal and im actually going to talk about myself and not all about Second life items.. Ive kinda had this topic on my mind and it keeps coming up a lot lately.. in all actuality  I’m not sure if people really know how far my social Awkwardness is .. If you have chatted with me in world  and you’ve gotten to know me you may know how odd i can be.. but I havent always been that way. Before I had 3 kids and was in my 2nd marriage I was social and maybe considered the life of the party.. Im noticing now that I am rather distant from people face to face.. I like my space but then again i dont like to be alone.. its boring.. and who is gonna laugh at my randomness when im alone? me probably.. but still. I’ve been having a hard time mentally with thinking where my friendships lye as far as who really trusts me who really cares about me and Who just thinks im a gullible idiot. I observe a lot .. and I may not always be able to give you the most sound advice . cause i often stick my foot in my mouth. but when i do give you advice its from my heart and its the best way i know how to put words together to let you understand it. Im not good with words I never have been.  I tell people that im not good with advice but it doesnt mean i dont care, cause i do. I care way to much for people who have no clue I exist . This being the reason why i get my feelings hurt way to easily.  Some of my friends have noticed my coldness in the last few weeks. A month or so ago I had became really depressed and i went to the doctor and had myself put on medicine . I’ve been on an anti depressant now for over 2 months and last month was just really hard for me i don’t know why i just felt really down and when i get this way everything suffers.. my relationships , me , my family.. because i just don’t feel like i have a connection with people and this makes it so much worse. Ive just really been trying to pinpoint my set off point of why i get into these funks and then why last month just sucked so bad for me and I really don’t know yet.. I don’t think its the medicine but its very possibly that what i keep to myself and i don’t say out loud is the issue  it just all festers and eats away at me and makes me feel negative and distraught. I do want to thank those of you who do consider yourself close to me though cause you are what helps me keep it together to keep going and not give up.

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 Headpiece SAS Flower Explosion Black ( The instruments)

lashes: # He La # Heavy to watch Eye Black ( The Instruments )

Brows: Nox Beks Brows Black ( Dark Style Fair)

 Sweet Lips PXL v1.4

straps: Topazia Poppy Toes for walk in the Flower Black

Pose:  !bang stand 447

Scene

 Grass : Alergria Black Rise Grass

outline: Junk Metal Her Silver

mask : PM Mode Watcher

Birds Axix Lady Crow for pose 7 and Extra crows set

 Flowers : Topazia poppy Ankle for walk in the flowers

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 A new Round of The Instruments Starts on May 1st 2015, Topazia is in this round with this outfit called infinite it comes in Dark Blue, Dark pink, Dark Purple, Dark Red , white and of Course Black which Im wearing. I paired the outfit with some Azoury shoes called Akiji shoes.

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Outfit Including hair: Topazia INFINITE black ( The Instruments) Starts May 1st 2015!

Shoes: Azoury– AKIJI Black ( IDK EVENT)

 Pose: Vestige Now Versace 5

cross light Anc Dark room/safe light

Fashion Art Fleur Sein

Since I’ve gotten a new computer and I’ve been exploring a bunch of places and finding out that a lot of the places I use to love are no longer around . So any suggestions from my readers on Artsy places that are still open would be greatly appreciated. I’m wearing a dress by ghee called the Kahlo whirl Dress. Also with the Ghee Frida Headpiece. With all the flowers I couldn’t help but use some of the Topazia poppy toes for walk in the flower feet laces with flower attachments. The Dress and headpiece will be at the FashionArt event Starting on March 1st.

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Pose: Something New – Look at me Pose #1

Dress: Ghee kahlo Whirl Dress ( Fashion Art Event) Opening March 1st, 2015

Headpiece: Ghee -Frida Headpiece ( Fashion Art Event) Opening March 1st, 205

Hair: Tableau Vivant – Shiny Hair (M) Naturals II

Hand Object: Azoury – Melancholy Bouquet of flowers

Location: Two Fish Too

 

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Classy final

 

Today is the 1st day of the Peace on Earth hunt the POE7 – runs from Dec. 1, 2014 – Jan. 6, 2015 . I’m wearing the DDM Designs Necklace ,bracelet , ring & earrings that are in the Peace on earth hunt.

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Pose: Posesion– Jewel 1

Background : heathenesque Studded wall art

slink nails : Alaska Metro– Nuetral Silver

Loud Mouth– Alli

applier lips: Random Matter– Dark Glosses- Rose

Jewelry: DDM Designs Cotton Candy elegance @ POE7 Hunt

Dress: Topazia– Farah gown pink

Hair: Vanity hair – L.A. Confidential ( MAT) Light blondes

Eyeliner: pichi- Pure Eyeliner Black 1

MUA: Contouring Cheeks- Natural Colors – Normal

Do you see?

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PosESioN Pose Terrific 1 found in the Haunted section of the The Xiasumi Festival:

 

Do you ever look at your art work and then see flaws later ? I do , Sometimes this is the reason why I do not post pictures immediately or even blogs for that matter just so I can step back and look at it again when I haven’t been so focused on it. ( why I’m bringing this up I see errors in my editing in my picture atm so if you see them  .. Just know,  I seem them too !  Just wanted anyone to know who reads this that Recently I had my face-book account closed down for whatever reason .. I’ve come up with some assumptions and most of that is me being paranoid so I’ll spare any readers i have my paranoia haha.  However I made an new account and I’m being very Selective with whom I add but so far I’ve had a lot of requests from sl folks I’ve never seen before which is ok with me I like meeting new people and talking with them and learning about them. I just don’t like getting reported and my account getting deleted which I’m sure most people do not enjoy.  Again we have many events going on right now in second life which seems to be the norm. When I started second life either i was just really out of the loop or I wasn’t paying attention which could have been it.. I really do not remember back in 2009 when I started having so many things to go to.. I actually remember thinking on some days while I was spending time in sl . What can I do? where can I go? Now it’s kind of like Omg There’s 15 events going on Right now and Guess what I’m a blogger for  NONE of them .. LOL , so end the end I either fight the lag or just get annoyed cause someone has SOOOO many scripts in their event I cant walk.. So I get flustered and give up! I can say though the sponsors I have I truely adore, Today’s picture’s are Sponsored by  Topazia, Zibska PosESioN and MUA. I can not express to you what a big fan girl I am for  these people ! They  Make Amazing creations that seriously do some Major Inspiration making in this Ande girl’s Brain! PosESioN’s has some new poses out that are Very Ande Worthly in my opinion kinda creepy  , kinda quirky and I really like them !!!! The Packs are called Horror , Terrific and Aerobic!

 

Take a bow signed

This pose can be found in the Horror Section of the The Xiasumi Festival

 This pose is in the Horror Pack and is the 2nd pose in the pack Love how the head is turned  and the arms are stretched out .

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PosESioN Aeorbic 3 pose Found in the Sports Section of the The Xiasumi Festival

{MUA} - Slink Nails HUD -Dance

In my pictures above I’m Wearing a Newer nail slink nail polish by MUA Called Dance these go on your hands and feet . Love the colors!

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Pose in 1st picture

PosESioN : Terrific 1 @ The Xiasumi Festival

Pose in 2nd picutre

PosESioN: Horror 2 @ The Xiasumi Festival

Pose in 3rd picture

PosESioN: Aeorbic 3 @ The Xiasumi Festival

Dress:  TOPAZIA-Voluble black lace butterfly (limited edition)

Necklace: Zibska  ~ Guntram Donna  @We ❤ Roleplay

Boots: REIGN.- Monroe Boots- Black @ Uber

 Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Karin Mesh Hair – Reds Pack @ FameShed

 Eyeshadow: Zibska  ~ Aylah Eyeshadow

Lips: {MUA} – MakeUp Set – Cinthya Lips Only

Nails: {MUA}- Slink Nails HUD – DANCE

Dark Beauty

“We don’t get to chose what is true. We only get to choose what we do about it.”
Kami Garcia, Beautiful Darkness

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The Dress I’m wearing by Topazia is actually  different pieces of the same style dress  the base dress is the Sharlene in black along with the short cape in black with the long cape from the Sharlene set in blue,

There are really endless options to mix and match with this dress style. The head piece is from zibska at an Event called the Tales of Fantasy and is open til Novemeber 3rd So go check it out!

Dark beauty five close

The make up I’m wearing  which consists of the blue eyeshadow and a bronze lips stick are by MUA ( Make-up Addiction)

This make-up can be found at the Cosmetic Fair Halloween Round that is already going on and Ends on the 31st. The nails are also by MUA and are called Pearl and come in 15 colors and can be found at the cosmetic fair as well.

{MUA} - Slink Nails HUD -Pearls

The pose and Next tattoo are by Axix and can found at the Bloody Horror fair

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Dress: Topazia Sharlene Dress Black  Dress & short Cape Also in Blue Long cape

Hair: [LOQ’ue] Rosolia Subsciber Freebie

Skin: Belleza- Mae Pale 1 Dk (The Vintage & cool fair )

Headpiece: Zibska – Hjorir @ Tales of Fantasy

Eyebrow Makeup: Zibska– Lifa Contouring – Terra

Makeup: MUA– Makeup Set Verso Full set  ( Cosmetic Fair Halloween)

Slink Nails: MUA– Pearls Blue (Cosmetic Fair Halloween)

Neck Tattoo: Axix -Chakra Tattoo ( Bloody Horror Fair)

Pose: Axix- Ladycrow7 ( Bloody Horror Fair)